As Far As Christmases Go, This One Has Not Been Spectacular

Today I got home at about 10 AM. A friend of mine had me over last night for Christmas Eve dinner, seeing as how he is also alone in the city for the holiday.

His original plan was that we would eat Hungry Man dinners, and then shoot ourselves in the head, but in the end, we settled for the traditional Christmas lasagna, far to much booze, and the newest Tracey Ullman DVD (State of the Union), which was, by the way, fricken hilarious (my favourite character was Padma the pharmacist).

I had a great time, and can I just say let's hear it for alcohol? I mean, it's like this magical feel-good potion that had me laughing and singing and feeling good. Man, I wish I could drink all the time.

Anyways, I bused (bussed?) home this morning, fed the cats, and lied in bed all day. Can't look for work, can't go out, should do laundry but don't feel like it. I've been having a lot of bad dreams about my former workplace lately. Even now I am still slightly hung over and my neck still hurts.

I am usually filled with optimism at the end of the year, as uncharacteristic as that may be. This time, though, just trepidation. I just want to get back to the road.

This is why I can't have nice things...

Because I'm unemployed, that is.

There's nothing like being jobless to make everyone you know suddenly know much better than you.

I'm so far behind in everything I'm doing...

Nothing New

Haven't posted anything in a while. I don't know what it is about being in front of my crappy laptop in my dirty apartment that just makes me want to stop thinking. I should be looking for a job. I should be finding a job. Shouldn't I have had at least ONE job interview since that last one?

I was also just about to buy a netbook, just so I could work outside of the home. It's nice to get out once in a while. Then I was going to buy a new laptop to replace this 5 year old piece of crap. In the end, I got cold feet, and I didn't buy anything. It's just as well, I guess, since I have no job.

I have been trying to find work in the video game industry. I am not a computer engineer or programmer or an artist. I have never worked in the industry before. I know it's the hottest industry or whatever, but still, come on. One company can't call me? I'm that unemployable? I resent being told that I suck by an entire industry.

In any case, it looks like I may not be able to go home this Christmas.

I NEED A JOB!

There's just so much stuff I want to buy!

My dream is to work for one of the video game companies, but not having any skills, it's a bit difficult to gain entry into this highly sought-after field. I'd love to do something involving editing or writing. Nothing left to do but keep searching.

I would like to thank all my fan for her encouragement, though, and assure her that I'm feeling much better now, thank you.

Oh, and Happy Thanksgiving!

It's hard!

It's hard to write something every day! Especially if you're unemployed and your life is at a near-standstill. I have a lot of opinions about things, but they are shared by most decent, clear-thinking individuals, so there's no point in posting those.

I live in what's considered to be a "first-world" country, there's plenty of food and water, manageable disease and no major disasters (knock on wood). I myself am in good health and EXTREMELY well-fed.

I guess I shouldn't complain.